Learning to Become in an Unraveling World
On this shortest day and longest night, I’m spending time with my questions. I’m trying to sit in the holy darkness and to learn from the mystery. I’m holding myself back from the answers I want to jump to, because what is sacred today is the deep and enveloping blackness, where I am freed from all the knowing and expectation, freed for the unknown and unexpected.
Read MoreThe surgery, which was supposed to start at 12:20pm, actually started around 3:15pm, a little more than an hour after they took me back for surgery. Do I know how any of this felt? No, I was asleep. But I do know from some group chats that people started getting a little worried once we passed the expected four-hour mark of surgery. And then five. And then six.
Cancer is funny, until it’s not.
Read MoreSome thoughts from Surgery Week, including a lot of complaints about prep drinks.
Read MoreA clean chest CT, a surgery date, and a short guide on how to deal with people dealing with cancer.
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